If
there was a set of principles or principle I would keep it would definitely be
to fix mistakes, or at least alleviate them, and I would never change my
physical (or mental if it's unreasonable) at all because of other's opinion.
For mistakes I know many say that they happen for a reason and you learn from
them… but just because they happened, it doesn’t mean you shouldn’t try not to
fix them. I understand that there are situations in which restoring something to
its original state would be impossible, but that doesn’t mean that you
shouldn't try correct it or make it less severe. If I had a bond with a person
(weak or strong) and I said something or caused a misunderstanding due to poor
wording and failure to emphasize what I really meant, I would try to fix it. Now,
I know that the bond may never be the same, but the guilt that I built up will
make me feel like a horrible person, and the only way to fix that for me is to
attempt and make things better. Even if it was or was not my fault I will most
likely take blame and try to fix things. I just can't stand the idea of knowing
that I've committed a mistake and yes they do happen for reasons and I can
learn off them to fix, or prevent, them the next time I cross across them. But
why wait until the next mistake to fix or prevent it? Why not learn by fixing
where you went wrong in the first place instead of waiting for another lesson?
I would just correct it when it hits and learn as I try to fix it.
The
other thing I will never do is change in physical appearance because of people's
opinion. Some of my family members state that growing up in a family with two
older brothers I was practically surrounded by 'male' stuff made me look like I
what I look, and that that should change. Other people just tell me start
acting and dressing like a girl; to change my mindset from midnight blue to
pretty pink. They demand that I start acting like a decent girl and dress like
one. This is what I honestly dislike and will never listen to. Growing up with
brothers did not influence me to be who I am at all. Sure I grew up with guys,
but believe me there was a time where I wore dresses and played with barbies. I
even owned a pink mustang and mansion. But there came a time where I realized
that I liked short hair and hated dresses and skirts. To be honest I would
never want to go back to long hair and dresses, they make me feel odd. If someone
were to ask to change my appearance because I look like a boy (which is always)
I wouldn’t do it. I've had my hair up to my waist and I'll still look like a
boy in people eyes. To me, I would rather be comfortable with wearing things
that were labeled as "male" stuff than to change my appearance to please
people. The same would go with mentality; I'll never change the way I think
it's just me. Changing the way I think and act to please others would be like
being a barbie. I don’t want to be dressed or a puppet of anyone. I'll never
change myself to please others. The only time I will change my mentality is if
I have some sort of issue that would send me to a medical ward… but even then
I'll still hesitate.
Overall
I know I can never go without attempting to correct my mistakes, even if the
outcome only leaves me with a half fixed whatever I was trying to fix. Having
something partially fixed or restored will always be better than just not
attempting to fix it and leave it unattended. That will link to the fact that
my mentality will never change for anyone. And if my mentality won't change to
please others, I most definitely won't change my physical appearance for anyone.
